No One Knows...

Mon, 02 Apr 2007 15:14:11 GMT

i kinda havent posted in aaaages! and that's pretty shitty of me, but here's my next post:

basically im caught in the largest web of work and midterms yet but hopefully all will go well and so forth, but like i just hope its over again and i hope i get what i want!

basically got the 3 hardest midterms coming up but i studied my ass off for them so that's why i CAN hope for some good :P and oh yeah im coming back in may16 for now, but maybe things change and i do a summer course in Cal State uni or something like that! but yeah, for now, im just gonna be plannin for the 16th!

and yeah ozy, raz, saleem, pat, i havent heard from you guys in ages! update me :D

tc and wish me luck pleaaaase! :D

Mon, 12 Feb 2007 04:39:50 GMT

why not choose the rest of the world over "me"? i mean, how should a person feel if everything someone wanted out of them was something they saw from someone else, and another and a couple more, then "copy pasted" it all into their expectations of you. you cant have someone be "unique" or different if they're all "parts" of other people...
the hypothetical you here cant expect from me to be what others are right? or i cant expect "you" to be all what i like in someone else...

hmm... im needing a break... i need to get some fresh air but i cant. im like choked and locked down. im so locked down, choked and out of element that i cant write a non-puzzling lj entry. that'll be way too much for some people, if they were... or werent related to me in any way. i also feel like i have to start doing shit my own way :P

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 18:30:11 GMT

i just realized how weird our society is... we do so much to protect ourselves, so much to "think" or "feel" safe but we never really embrace what it means. i feel we're so imperfect in so many ways and that no matter how "advanced" we become we always are missing something. did you ever think why we have "standards" for everything? did you ever think that we should be complemented BIOLOGICALLY and not mechanically? i mean, we're skin and bone, and we pur liquid when we get cut... we use our own priniciples to create our own versions of us. look at cars, buildings and everything... it's so imperfect but suits the purpose... we make them to be like us in a way.. all on the same principles that we run on. everything NEEDs maintenance... i imagined what it would be like if everything we did was in a "living" form. it would be sooo much more complementary. i think that's the stage when we'll stop; when the walls make themselves and grow with bones and evolve over time. the pilars would just stand and you could feel the place breathe, never feeling alone, surrounded by a presence, a spiritual presence. if trees eveloved to be "houses" where we no longer build them, we plant them instead. imagine where you're sitting and imagine the nearest pillar bleeding red blood, and imiagine your phone having an emotional attachment to you... where your car wasnt a car. it was more science fiction. concrete walls held together by a network of veins and arteries pumped by artificial hearts combining everything we know into biology, but how would internet and all that work? how would we communicate? i think it's so farfetched, but if were to seemlessly integrate (i.e having mechanical+biological) we would be in a very different world... it might happen, i mean, there's already DNA computers in the making where we store info using DNA... imagine that... go to www.howstuffworks.com and search dna computer and check it out...

if only everything breathed...

Wed, 31 Jan 2007 15:46:47 GMT

SO, it's been a loong while since i last updated on LJ. i always feel like i should wait an extra day and post about everything all at once, but actually, it's better to just say what's on my mind for now:

school is hard and kicking my ass right now, and by school i mean uni. im really in the need of a saviour for econ and physics, but what can we do? anyways, i've also been doing argileh every once in a while, i mean, sometimes it hits my head when i do it so i like it, and if i feel it aint gonna hit i ust stop! but also, i've been missing all the people back in KW but whatever, last year before most of them leave anyways! i mean, that's really sad cos it's gonna be harder to see each other now.. :( but yeah! all good, all good!

hmm... i'm prolly going to a niteclub tonight for the fuck of it, cos i just feel like going, and my weekend should be fun! so yeah, and this fucking sonofabitch is on my nerves. FUCK HIM NOW. he's like a fucking asshole and whatever... hope it's not that bad later on...
anyways, waiting on two people to know where im living next year, but first i gotta cancel my dorm contract and also i gotta sign a lease for the apartment... i dunno who im gonna end up with, but both dudes are awesome people! they're the shit!

so yeah, im gonna be really like, in the mode and all that, gonna be studying hard starting next week and onwards (that's when the study dont stop :( im dreading it) but after it's done, i got a whole summer to look forward to, cos i doubt im staying to do a summer course.

hopefully pics in one of thecoming posts! lata!

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 20:11:32 GMT

oh my god. today was like a day from like a dream. i dunno how or why it happened but it did and im superglad. i can't believe it though... so surreal...

anyways, im leaving to penn state on sunday. that gives me about three days... sucks and doesnt at the same time!

Fri, 22 Dec 2006 02:59:34 GMT

hehey :P im back!

RAZ, if you read this, i wanna see your fucking face ya bo6a6a, and dude, fuck! come over man, apparently we got a german shepherd so he kan bite your ass :P
anyways, see you soon!

oh yeah, ozy, when you coiming back?
later guys! cant be bothered to write cos im jetlagged.. :S

Sat, 02 Dec 2006 20:40:43 GMT

hey guys! im putting quite some stuff (mainly pics) as friends only from now on, so if you guys wanna check them out that bad, just make a user and ill add you! or a group of you make a user and use it, it doesnt matter!

Thu, 30 Nov 2006 05:46:53 GMT

ok, here's some more photos by other people so im just gonna put them as they come!

me and the flag... not my own though :P

we're so... unique... (tear to the eye!)

that be right bro

i doesnt know what i is doing! me, jasem, abdullah and husain!

holy shit all penn staters and some outkasts from like... i dunno where!

me and Nixa (naif) and then the moron is jassomi! :P

i, nixa, moe abdulsalam, bottom is jasem and some dude called abood!

big 3abood and jassem hwaidy and daffy duck lookalike; wahab. on the bottom it's goddamn me and jasem (lion)

bo6a6a!
(props to saleem and raz!)

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 04:17:54 GMT

so i went to NYC and this is a FRACTION of the pics taken. just one of my friends sent these in so there's WAAAAAAAAAAY more. enjoi!

wahab and i!

i dunno... i think i was... me.

nyc baby!

moses, wahab, the biggest Falla----> Mish3al, and the moeses!

same guys, just more serious!

so... any time now! :P

the guy on the right is Baraa2! he's funny lol

ponder, i shall.

walla, seykal boleesy

supaman :D and abdulla abdulatif(soc1 buddy) with yousef abdulsalam on the bed :P

i dunno what i was thinking, but i sure as hell was thinking!

at Nawal's concert! some dude, then mohammad timimi, then na6er ma3rifi then moi!

and that be's it!! woohoooo! loooool!

Sat, 04 Nov 2006 00:32:23 GMT

ok. for the past three days i've been miserably sick. actually, i blacked out last night and fell in the domr halls and threw up constantly until 3am. i've been throught the same thing this past summer and im glad i got some antibiotic earlier this time. oz, remember when i got sick that day when we went to the guitar shop? same shit sherlock.

anyways, i hope things get better cos i made one mistake on halloween and what goes around comes around. basically, im not going out in swim shorts only for a party again. also im never gonna take ONLY advil before going.

in other news i got a new phone, k800i. some ass of a hole ran into me and broke my k750i so i just bought this one.

peace dudes.

Wed, 01 Nov 2006 10:48:24 GMT

on it's side, it's an infinity. 8.
talking about the beloved eight.

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Sat, 28 Oct 2006 19:01:09 GMT

i was at the gym last night, like every other night :D and my friend managed to click a cool shot!

ego boosta :P

a8 paper.

Sun, 22 Oct 2006 22:00:31 GMT

basically, not much has happened. im happy with my grades because i was heading in a downward spiral for a bit and got out in time for the midterms. the only dissapointment is arch210 though... the rest are ok.
someone must be praying against me cos i've been going through shit the past week. basically, i lost my wallet. that's enough to be said and enough to show how bad i feel. i had to run across campus at 2am, in shorts in the worst case of rain i've experienced yet and with no money at all... i was also tkaen into a police station because i didnt have a keycard to enter my dorm building. you know how degrading it feels to be soaking wet, in a poilice station being questioned like a fucking terrorist because i lost my key? i wasnt only asked my name, my age and my room number. i was also asked who my roommate was what my id number was, and i was ESCORTED to my room to make sure i wasnt lieing. i mean i understand if they're worried about security, but seeing someone else with the same case only get asked his name and roomnumber and id showed me they hate my arab guts. i was also asked my bday, my phone number and alot of details just to re-re-re-re-re-re-reverify. so yeah... after that... back to my wallet. all my cards and IDs were inthere and it basicall wasnt the time. then again i wasjust having a bad week..
i lost it in an auditorium and i had two important things in there that money cant buy back... but being a human, i lost it and now im waiting for the new credit crds to get sent to me. but for now, i have no id. no license. nothing.

in better news, my mom got the audi A8. the best fucking choice in my opinion. i like it better than the S (thank god she didnt getthat) and 7 series (she was going to get it even though my dad has it. so im glad she didnt)

<something here disappeared because of some fucking assholic shit that some people might/will... actually, DID say>

yeah... im still pissed off about the wallet... and the minstry didnt send my salary cos of it. damn, i cant get it till monday, the earliest. now i feel shittier. damn... whatever! shit happens, i guess!

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 05:49:03 GMT

seeing how things have progressed and how some people (i wont mention :P) are bugging me to update this personal peice of shit that i love, i'm doing it!

basically, i've been awestruck by the overwhelming provisions caused by interspeculated interactions throughout the godaforsaken classes i procure in and instigate, i realise how much bullshit i can write in just one sentence and catch the attention of people who think they know what they're reading.
apart from that bull, i've been going with a kickass kuwaiti to the gym daily now! he's the shit! such a laid back dude! and, he's teaching me how to gym properly, so that's cool! i've been guitaring on track again! OZY!!! recommend some songs! btw, im buying guitarpro in a week! so yeah!
basically, i got alot of work to do so i might not go out this weekend but.. it's soooo tempting! the fucking michigan game is on saturday and that means 100000x the awesome parties! they get better on football weekends, especially when we win! so cross them fingers! im going only if we win!! we are... penn state :P
so yeah, apart from that other, more recent bull, which followed the more bull-isized bull, i conclude: no pics! noone has been taking cams with them so... fack thes! when cams come again, i take more pics!
oh yeah, to be on the topic of horny sluts (although we were never on the topic), i found a slut who's so horny i swear she'd fuck a poor, helpless turtle. and i though guys are horny fags!! i swear, turn of events! some people here would do anything for a banana :P it's funny though, ill probably post pics of funny-ness in the near future!
oh yeah, best news... my mom wants to get a new car! i say audi s8 but she says 6 serie... dunno. she's being stubborn on this really easy choice... DAMMIT!!! FUCK!!

later nigweeds!

Sun, 01 Oct 2006 06:43:08 GMT

hey, this post is dedicated to AK! the main man!

well, i just got back from my weekend outing! wasnt too bad! im officially latino material now, so i hang with them!
anyways, i talked to AK for about an hour and a bit and basically, that dude is the shit! (could be a rap song :P) and yeah. i miss that fucker! i really do! i mean, the great thing is that he offered a person to talk to when depressed etc! i mean even though it's not often that i am, i still enjoi talking to that man! i mean i friggin grew up with him so yeah... it's great to have someone going through the sme things you're going through... i mean, AK is the man; the dude! dont get me wrong, i love all my friends (yeah, all of you!!!) but then again, i like aknowledging specific people sometimes!
so yeah, basically, AK be the man and talking today kinda was asif we were in kuwait talking to each other! im glad we didnt change! (except that we became homies :P)

peace bro!

Fri, 29 Sep 2006 21:12:19 GMT

so... i got my prison break and fall of ideals package from amazon! i have no idea why i ordered the fall of ideals by all that remains, but whatever! who cares!

i am excited!
and BEA, congratulations on being head girl! i kinda forgot that you read this load of crap and so.. i decided to mention you again! thanks for reading and all but someone (not gonna mention their name! :P) didnt get mntioned here!!

peace niggas!

oh yeah, weekend today! and btw, im considered "latino" here! they said i look it so i get invited to latino gigs and parties! woohoo! hi five :P

Edit:
i just got a call from mailing dept downstairs and...
MY GUITAR ARRIVED!!!! WOOHOOOO!!!!!

Tue, 26 Sep 2006 15:52:34 GMT

so, an updated:

i just placed an order for a guitar, amp, strings and all that for $350 bucks. basically, i found an ibanez withought a floyd rose, with 24 frets and has $200 off the original price ($400) so i used the extra money to get an amp etc..

also, i ordered prison break season 1! other than that, i might get nip tuck and watch with the Tioga house! (7 dudes in a dorm that im friends with!)
what else? midterm in chem tomorrow, i have midterms from then on and yeah... my weekends are gonna be single-day weekends! so it's now either fri or sat! gotta study, can't do both anymore! :P

hmm... im kinda excited about the guitar! it's kinda cool! i was gonna get an esp or jackson but none have 24 frets.. so bleh. i resorted to the good old ibanez!

oh yeah, sin city ROCKS!!! i ordered a poster of jessica alba in sin city! good $5 deal! just hope it all comes soon!
peace niggers!

Sat, 23 Sep 2006 16:34:34 GMT

hey well, these are the first pics i have from me in the states so... enjoi i guess!

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bottom: dave, merrit, ryan, bri
top: I, rachel, (forgot last one's name :S)

merrit me and rachel!

that's it... ill get more photos later but i cant be bothered!
take care nigs!

Fri, 22 Sep 2006 14:29:04 GMT

hey... it's another friday. the second last of this month i think. anyways, im getting bored of parties... im gonna cut down! i mean, they're great and all, just same old and all people want these days are 1 nighters. fuck that shit.

anyways, im doing kinda good on quizzes etc but i have midterms next week and the week after... so FUCK. i started studying for next week's but not the one after's! and, basically, i have alot of work. no play time during weekdays! oh yeah, the weather is starting to get cold.. like COOOOOOLD!!!!! SOOOO COOOOOLD!!!! like yesterday i couldnt take it at all! i need clothes now!
and they put down my salary, so woohooo, i can spend around now!! i have aot of shit i wanna buy :P

oh yeah 3noud!!! shahad ma3rifis bro is one of my friends!!! nasser ma3rafi!! off, i was soo shocked to see him! same major too! and he's really cool!!

uhh... what else, i kinda miss you guys so yeah, ill try to call in the next couple of weeks! i sorta wasted the last of my calling card last night!

and oz, raz, saleem, i miss you guys too. raz, if you took my guitar, take care of it. i kinda miss it more than i miss most people! (that's not a joke btw!)
and i ordered a shirt that says "i love kuwaiti girls" but i dunn when it's gonna arrive! i wanna go around wearing it soon though! :P

yeah moe, that's my background! also, i met a colombian girl called Julie (the J is a kha in 3araby!) and she says, that her older sisters knew juanesso yeah! i started listening to him again! :P

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 01:16:06 GMT

lol! here's some pick os me acting all macho!

too bad i have none in the nightlife... no digi cam with me! :(

rock on lol! i was listening to "this could be anywhere in the world"

lol! i do laundry all the time! all on my bed getting done one by one! i still need to do whites though!

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 14:52:12 GMT

soo... basically, lol!

im having amazing times here! just finished chem and calc 1 quiz and im gonna enjoi myself tonigh cos classes dont start till 12pm everyday except on thurday (9am :P) so yeah! anyways, im not done classes until 8pm which is like 3am kuwait! (7 hours difference!) and so i might go to the hookah lounge with some people from the dorms! (hookah = Shisha!)

oh and those wondering, i HAVE made kickass american friends and most are neighbors! so yeah, his name is nate, nickname Gator and he's like a fucking sexpert! husain, walla you'll love the way this guy talks! and he's like fucking built and all! he's such an emrican college dude and he basically is my ticket to frats etc! so yeah!
aah... im bored waiting for class so yeah. anyone, if you want anything from here, TELL ME!!!! it's fucking cheap! im probably getting a ps3 and 360! they're sooo cheap!
later dudes!

Sat, 09 Sep 2006 15:05:29 GMT

HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY OZ!!!!

I MISS YOU FUCKER!!!!

Sat, 09 Sep 2006 01:46:34 GMT

so... i finally got my macbook pro, i'm using it now and it's fucking awesome!

i started classes last week and they're cool! my sociology proff was explaining the logic of cursing and so, he had to curse to explain! this is how the class started:
proff: why do you think people curse? wait, lemme refrase... why the FUCK do people curse?
class: *laughs*
from then on, it was constant f bombs!

so yeah, this place is fucking cool but i forgot my cam so fuck it!
anyways, i studied a shitload and i was about to go to a frat party... they arent too great but the funniest people appear (cos they're drunk) so basically i kinda enjoi them!
anyways, tomorrow im going to an apartment party (goddamn too many fucking parties! :P) and doind what i do best; mess with drunk peoples' head :P
if anyone is wondering, this place is good for study in the morning, sushi at lunch and the people here party SO much it isnt funny. there are so many parties here it's not explainable!

anyways, i have some pics but being me, i cant be arsed to upload them! i can only be bothered to download and leach the superfast internet! and Raz, i see what you mean... it's FUCKING fast and cheap!

so yeah.. all i've been doing is lazing around now, might go out might not, but basically, im enjoiing it!

Sun, 03 Sep 2006 17:48:39 GMT

so, i've been trying to settle in, but i've been caught by a couple of depressions! you know, trying to make good friends and all that... i mean i've already made alot of kuwaiti friends but only two local friends! :P

so yeah, i have time to make them! also, my classes are late and hard too so i have to really study this semester but that's my plan anyways!

about the dorms, i was first in a male building, then i moved to a co-ed and realised it was SHIT!! so i moved back to the male cos i had made friends there. and i met a girl im hot topic (metal music store) in the mall so im probably gonna hang out if she's still there.

kuwaitis are really cool but they all have their american sidegroup so im gonna have to firm up and make my own! but anyways, i gotta meet people first and i dont start classes till the 5th so yeah...

i miss all you guys: husain, tan, ansari, richa, dal, mona, AK, nik, uhh... all the guys basically! oh yeah, i have pics of you guys hung in my dorm, ill post pics when my laptop arrives in the mail!

later and keep me posted!

Tue, 29 Aug 2006 22:53:40 GMT

hey guys, im in Penn state! it's really cool, just saying hi!

take care!